substance….

The other day, this girl i used to be extra cool with was on some shit… and made a comment saying that i only date nonsubstanial females…. i was so fuckin mad i didnt know what to do. Mind you this is somebody who had a thing for me, just like i had a thing for them. it just never went anywhere because a whole buncha reasons.

But damn? Nonsubstantial?

i had to ask two people what that shit EXACTLY meant, just incase i happen to be wrong. that shit damn near ruined my day. my feelings wasnt hurt… i just wanted to cuss her ass out. that is some fucked up shit to tell a muhfucka. She was saying that i mess with females who lack substance… who aint about shit… dont do shit… dont know shit… aint shit period… they just fuckin there for the hell of it… taking up space. that shit dont exactly speak well for a nigga… you know? then…. my ex didnt make shit ANY damn better by agreeing with ol girl. aint that fucked up? i had to make sure she knew that ol girl was talkin about HER ass too… espeically because she didnt like her. So now im fuckin fuming… thinkin back on my self like… damn? do i really be trying to talk to retards? Then i had to run to Syl and ask her… i been knowin Syl for a min now she should know. Thank God Syl disagreed or i was about to feel bad about my damn self and get to cussin, throwin shit back on muhfuckas… givin out complex’s n shit. i was hot lol. but naw… Syl ( my free shrink lol ) pointed out some shit that pretty solid that had me on some fuck them niggas shit.

Basiclly what happen was…

all the females ive messed with and took seriously ( or showed an abnormal amount of attention to ) all had substance. they were all about something, doing positive things with thier lives.

one is gonna be a lawyer, ( she hasnt made up her mind on what kind yet lol international business or entertainment ) she is in her senior year at a good school out here… and im hella proud of her. and imma be kinda upset if she goes some where far away to law school.

one was GONNA be a lawyer… should be a fuckin lawyer… but she hella lazy lol and she makes tha same amount of money doing WAY less… so i feel her there lol ( love her to death no matter what )

one never got that serious about, but i let her come to my house on GP which says a books worth lol and i told my parents about her… which says even MORE… she is hella cool… we are still friends… she speaks like 8 different fuckin laungages, has a degree in…….. somethin computer related… but she just started her own consulting company and should be hella sucsessfull sometime in tha very near future.

one was studying to be a brain surgion (sp)… i liked her a whole bunch… she got hit by a drunk driver head on a couple years ago… they thought she was dead… i miss her.. last i talked to her she was doin ok. but its been a min… i hope she is still doin ok. sigh…

one graduated high school with honers… yap yap yap… she is a couple years from being a CPA… ol punk ass… she was fun though… i say highschool because she broke up with me right before her senior year… right after i had just graduated ( 97′ she got out in 98’… dont want muhfuckas thinkin im some kinda pedofile lol )

one is about to graduate from college with a marketing major…. i think… i always forget… i know she tired of tellin me lol im proud of her too… i remember when she used to take tha bus to junior college and be tooooo pissed off about it lol

one ( tha muhfucka who made tha punk ass remark ) is in school majoring in…. some shit… but she wants to be a corporate lawyer… shes actually pretty damn smart ( till she slipped up with her ol skanless ass comment )

one is pretty damn smart too… she just doesnt know what she wants to do with her life. she can do anything she wants… shes good at a whole lotta shit. she is just havin a hella hard time making up her mind lol.

im leavin a couple muhfuckas out… but i think thats enough evidence… i havent talked to THAT many muhfuckas. ( even tho muhfuckas will hype it like i have… assholes )

but… let me not hype shit all the way… because you are always gonna have your fill-ins lol. tha females that served there purpose weither they knew it or not. everybody has a couple lol… sometime you just cant help it lol

but that still doesnt make tha females i date nonsubstantial… ( because for one… i dont date… ive only EVER been on like 5 dates my entire life… fuck that ) the ones that i have messed with ( they were never ‘girlfriends’ ) that wasnt about too mucha shit… i dont talk to anymore… it was just a passing thing. it was cool for tha moment… shit happen, niggas move on to bigger and better things lol.

but the ones that i either was with or was talking to i still know… we are all still cool ( for the most part )… and shit didnt work out for a bucket fulla fuckin reasons… but we are still cool, i still keep in contact ( or try to ).

But when a nigga thinks back on shit… i almost cant blame those two for sayin that shit, because it was brought to my attention that i dont exactly speak well on any of them. well… maybe a couple of em… if i ever mention them at all. which is fucked up on my part. i had people hating people that hadnt ever met because i would speak so foul of them. i would always get ugh… fuck that bitch… and didnt know why. i used to think i knew a ganga jealous ass females… like damn homie… what she do to you? lol. but yea man… it was all my fault. i didnt mean to do it at all… and it wasnt me sayin fuck that dirty slut or anything… i would only speak on tha shit that used to piss me off about them… or somethin i felt was kinda fucked up that they did too me. it was never anything good… never lol. and i never realized it. to PG in particular im really sorry… there were alotta people not liking her that she never knew about or knew of or anything. and i made her out to be some kinda super villian in my life, which was super fucked up of OJ. So im sorry 🙂 and i hope she forgives me.

anyway. it was all OJ’s fault… i was wrong… i can admit it… my bad…

from now on i will only talk bad on tha muthafucka(s) that deserve it ( she know who she is ) lol

and i will super hype it to make up for all tha wrong i had people believing lol