OJ is fuckin Picky.

I hate that sometimes i become a victim of my OWN pickyness. im so hard to please its rediculious. im picky with everthing…. from females to food. anything i can possibly make a dessesion on.

alot of times i wont eat because……. im too lazy to actually make me a full meal, but! i refuse to just make some bullshit real quick because it wont taste good as good if i actually took my time. plus i wont be satisfied and wont be full. so ill fuckin starve. shit sucks… there was this girl i really had a thing for. she was fuckin gourgious. she just had a terrible ass smile. i was a good 60% sure that id end up marrying this girl. but long as she didnt smile lol. sigh… turns out, i just couldnt do it. she was great. still is. but… smile… still sucks. i cant do it. i wont even let people buy me a “gift” because chances are, whatever they get me, it wont be what i want. so often times i pass. i refuse not to have what i want. yea… im kinda spoiled like that. but its hard for me to do it any other way.
i actually have a problem with gift giving…. because often times… the point of giving a gift is to make some one happy, right? so if thats the case. then why, if some one is giving me a gift… why am i getting something THEY want me to have? instead of something i WANT? that shit doesnt make sense to me. i hate when somebody gives me some shit because they THINK that i MIGHT like. eeehh i cant get with that. that doesnt make sense to me. im not being ungreatful… but really. i dont want that… im not happy… YOU HAVE FAILED IN YOUR MISSION! just give me some damn money… and ill go get my own damn gift. Honestly this has alot to do with my hating christmas. i used to get shitty ass presents… not from my parents… but from other people. shit used to suck. i remember my grandfathers wife ( he re-married… ) got me a fuckin bath towel… with elastic… that you put on like a muthafuckin skirt. i couldnt believe that shit lol. for the 10 plus years i celerbrated christmas… i dont think she ever got me any one thing i could actually put to use. iOR anything that fuckin fit for that matter. i actually think they still get me shit for christmas… i just dont ever bother to go get that shit. sigh. lol i have a lot of bad christmas memories. ive been fuckin grounded ON christmas day! and had all my toys taken from me… i didnt see them shits til mid january.

but then sylvia had a great idea… setting up a wish list would be a great way to get what i want. provided some one wanted to buy my picky ass something lol. made sense. my mom gave up a LONG LONG time ago… most people have.

but now… there is hope for me.

so we will see how this turns out.

speaking of see how this turns out… the howard stern show, on friday, will have a in studio contest to find the worlds smartest stripper. and that shit looks RATHER GUTTY!

thats it… thats all.