disapointment

sigh…

looks like i will spend my summer in the punk ass valley this summer.

i suspect that i will be overwhellmingly muthafuckin bored and attempt conpensate my bordem by buyin shit that i really dont need.

when what i really need to be doing is saving my duckets ( lol remember that word? ) and repairing my credit.

but since i will be in tha sorry ass valley… i think imma have a very hard time on focusing on my credit situation.

i dont think it would be so damn bad if i didnt hate my aptartment so much.

some people ask me… they say… oj… if you hate your apts so much… why dont you move?

i say… well… i have terrible ass credit… and so does my room mate. i make enough… credit just sucks…

then they say… oh… well… why dont you leave and go out more?

i say… well… this may sound like a sorry ass excuse… but trying to pull out of the drive way of my building is dangerious as fuck… because i cant see the cars comming from EITHER FUCKING SIDE. so it kinda puts a big ass RISK on tryin to leave this muhfucka. why cant i see? because the city zoning and enginering ( sp… good lord ) is super folded. and there are NO RED ZONES by the drive ways…. there is suppose to be AT LEAST 100 ft. of red zone…( flexes the degree that i dont use ), i think ( ive been out of practice for far too long lol, i can barely operate cad lol )

time out… say oj… i thought you were moving…

oh yes i was… i ( we… me and syl )was approved and everything. but there was this lady… she was moving out… but all of a sudden………….. her son is diagnosed with cancer. she put in her notice and everything… but now she cant move, shes super stressed and everything else. of course i could be like fuck that… you put in your gotdamn notice… kick rocks… but im not tha fuckin devil, so i will not be doing anything of the sort.

but fuck… the beach… 10 min away… from the damn beach… nice area… in los angeles… not THAT much traffic… LOW RENT…. time out… did i say los angeles? i meant veince… veince fuckin beach, yea thats right…. not exactly on the beach… or even THAT close ( because thats too much traffic ) 10 min away… and thats only because of all tha damn lights. its far enough yet close enough… closer than i was a year ago… did i mention low rent and the beach?

sigh… im disapointed… i dont wanna stay in the valley…

but fuck it… i love the sun…and the valley gets more than a muhfucka ever wanted.

i just pray i dont have to sign another year lease at this muhfucka… ugh.