April 2002 - Uhmah Park

ok… remember how i had that old ass al b sure song stuck in my head…

i finially remembered it… well… i remembered which one it was earlier…

anyway..

that very next day… i had ” dont be cruel ” stuck in my head, by bobby brown lol… dont know why… but i sho nuff was singin that shit…

then on the way to the car earlier today… i caught my self singin some old ass keith sweat… and i been singin that shit ALL today… some old.. Make it last n shit. ( that was this morning )

i dont know what the hell my problem is… i been singin those hot 80’s and early 90’s hits… i think im having a flash back of a tape i made when i was younger or something ( when i actually liked r and b… please dont ask me what my problem was )

and ill be damned if later on in the evening… when i was out runnin around town… i was singin ” i wanna go out side in the rain ”

i have no clue…

i dont have no new love in my life…. i havent had my heart broken… i really aint tryin to be with no damn body ( work too damn much )… so… i dont know why these songs have been just popin up in my head lately… but i wish that shit would just cut tha fuck out.

lol cuz i cant sing wortha shit… lol

its startin to piss me off

lol i remember in high school i used to walk around singin oldies and doing the old ass temptations steps n shit… shit was tha guts.


man… i hardly ever watch BET.

they do some shit that… eehhh fuck it… why complain? its easier to just not watch it.

anyway…

i wanted to see a interview on bet tonite.

but i blew it… because i was sititn here and after it went off… i fucked up and didnt turn off the tv. end up watchin midnight love…

i HATE most r and b… some of it is alright… but for the most part? that shit is awful.

first video that comes on…

musiq… i guess dude has a new cd or single or something ( i have his first cd, pretty tight… i was surprised… i didnt think id like it ) the video that came on was half crazy… i half listened to it… but it sounded like it was cool. most of his cd was. i like dude.. he gets busy.

next comes faiths video… i love you… i got bored after the first 20 seconds… but then again… it takes more than a good lookin female, and cleavage to keep my attention. that shit was boring.

everything after that is a blur… until……………………….

this video by remy shad ( or some shit like that ) comes on….

i dont know who tha fuck this is… like i said… i dont watch bet or videos for the most part.

so im watchin.. and there is this ( im thinking, i wasnt studying tha whole scene ) hella light skin dude walkin down tha street with a big ass guitar. ok… then tha camera goes to a shot to this club spot… it said some shit like ” Neo Soul Cafe “. i thought to my self… ahh i thought they said it wasnt neo soul… it was good music or some shit like that? and how fuckin corny is ” neo soul cafe “. so anyway… this light skin dude, or so i was REALLY thinking now since that shit said neo soul cafe on tha outside… rolls up to what looks like tha club owner/manager with his lil berret on ( which i thought was a tad suspect because the shit did say neo soul cafe on tha outside… so this video is really gettin corny now ) and he gives tha motion for dude to go up on stage after some words or whatever. and ill be gotdamned if tha light skin dude turned out to really be a white guy?!?!?! i almost had to wake somebody up out they damn sleep….

WHAT?!?! a white guy? neo soul? dammit!!!

WE CANT HAVE SHIT!!!

now im not really tryin to hate on tha guy, he could actually be making good music, i dont know, not like i bothered to listen to it, give him a chance or watched tha video all that much. but still lol what do i know? anyway… the lil peices of the video i did catch… what i got from it… was this white guy rolls up in a club… and there is basicly nothing goin on… then he starts to proform… then people start comming in… comming from where ever they was in tha spot to hear dude… and first most of the people ( black people ) are taken back ( apperently somebody knows this isnt tha norm ) like what tha fuck? then all of a sudden they are like… well its alright… and by the video everybody is groovin and dude is tha shit… walks out of the club all successful and i suppose a color barrer is broken. and i THINK by the end of the video there were some white people in the crowd… but i dont all tha way remember. but i do remember there were a ganga black people dude was proforming for… so i guess dude is portraying his self as accepted ( mighty damn convienant when you pay everybody to be there ).

ugh…

now here is where the problem lies…

tha whole video seems like a gotdamn set up if you ask me.

because at the begining they let everybody know that a white guy “singing neo soul” really isnt the norm… or else everybody in tha club ( in his OWN fuckin video ) wouldnt have been so fuckin shocked.

and then there wouldnt have been the whole… ” hey, he is actually kinda cool ” period of the video. so this lets me know that there arent too many white people doing the whole “neo soul” thing. since i been out of the loop for so long, because i dont watch videos or listen to the radio ( salvation if you ask me ) i dont know if white people normally be on some neo soul shit ( outside of patronage ), i really wasnt knowin at first. but these are the clues that put a me on as to what was tha norm ( even tho i still could be wrong… but hey… this is just what i peeped out lol ). anyway. then here we have the part of the video where this guy gets “accepted” and everything is cool… psshh does this mean I TOO am suppose to just accept this guy too?!?!?! just because a buncha muthafuckas was paid too be on some “OK” shit?!?! seems like peoples thoughts are being led in a particular direction to me. because i know for a fact that just by the way the video went… there are gonna be SEVERAL dumb asses who are gonna be like… yea… he’s white… but he’s ok. just because of the video. not really even listening to what the fuck kinda shit he is on. when if the video wouldnt have went like that, most of these same muthafuckas would have just shruged dude off. like eehh. but people are sheep and easy to lead.

dude is probably tha brain child of some record exec. trying to tap the market his/her own way. this guy whole cd is probably a summary of all tha sh.it thats been out for the last couple years.

but then again… im not too big on the whole “neo soul” thing to begin with. if imma like it… imma like it… i dont care what kinda label people try to give it. most of that shit is still wack reguardless. i dont care how a muhfucka change it up. or how much more soulful it get. i still dont like r and b all that much…

anyway.

my point is… we cant have shit to our selves for the most part. except the word ” nigga”, like thats something to cherish, and even thats being infultraited

truth be told i wouldnt have went on this whole thing if the video didnt feel so much like a set up lol.


i was in a fantasy basketball league.

on my team..

i had:

kobe

bibby

stockton

quienten richardson

micheal finnely

walley serbeak (sp )

tim duncan

pj brown

valade

zo

ben wallace

and

wesly person

lol my teams name was:

the L.A. Gangbangers

lol

during the regular season i finshed 3.5 games outta first place. ( i finished second for the slow people. )

i dominated during the first two rounds of the playoffs… then came the championship.

that sh.it was two and a half weeks long ( tha normal games were a week long )

the first week was close…

i thought tha championship was a week too…

at the end of the first week… i was up by one. and thought i won….

but no… had another week and a half to go… where i watched the lead slip slip slip tha hell away.

but the last 4 days… i regained the league… and won tha championship…

didnt win a damn thing except braggin writes amoungts tha homies ( because thats who was in the league )

now excuse me… i have some shi.t talkin emails to send and the “cabbage patch” to do. lol


for some strange reason last night…

when i was ATTEMPTING to black out… i had a strong urge to listen to al b. sure.

i dont know why…..

good news in the morning tho… tha urge passed.

all is once again well ( kinda ).

GIRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRLLLLL

lol


i was sittin at my computer(s) minding my own damn bidness…

when i looked out the window to see the manager of my apt building in a twism shirt.

now this normally wouldnt be that funny ( other than tha fact that nobody is wearing that shit anymore ) but…. tha manager of my building is a white lady.

an middle aged white lady

who looks like Janis Joplin…

long ass nasty hair… hippied out…

she always looks like she has on her pj’s

actually… she looks like a nerdy version of Janis Joplin… because she wears THICK ass classes… striaght coke bottles.

and her voice is hard on the ears… hard as fuck… it sounds like her vocal cords are made of the midgrade sand paper.

and she has cigerette man teeth… you know like tha guy from x files? but hers are darker… and slightly spreed apart… as if each one of her teeth thinks that tha tooth next to them has bad breath. it looks like they are tryin to talk to each other… but just far enough back so they dont have expericnce the other tooths pungent ass breath.

but yea… she had on a big ass TWISM shirt… look like she got shaq him self for that shit..

i just thought that shit was so funny.

but it could just be me.

more to come… im not done… i just gotta leave.


Why is it…. that every time a muhfucka hit tha snooze button for that extra 5 to 7 min of rest… it NEVER fuckin works? you STILL be just as sleepy 5 to 7 min after you just hit that bullshit. that 5 to 7 min feels like a hot 30 seconds.

still wake up pissed off…

still wake up tired as shit…

the snooze button is hype…

and my black ass is sleepy.


man… i havent played basketball since the summer..

and my black ass is HELLA SORE

( i balled yesterday )

ran like 4 games in a row… by game 2 i was tired as fuck

by game 4 i was damn near dead.

but me, brutha dub and some of tha other homies are joining this adult league that starts in May.

and im tryin to get in shape and work on my game a tad.

hopefully i dont fuck around and kill my self before then.

only thing tho… i wish people wouldnt block me out so much… so i could catch somebody (s) on a follow. dammit.

anyway.

i was more than happy to spring forward… means more daylight time to ball. and it means its gettin hotter… and a nigga can fuckin wear shorts now. and ball outside more. ( because i cant find a cool gym to save my fuckin life )

and to all the people who have been asking…

i havent been posting anything for a couple reasons…

1 im not here to entertain no damn body… ( reguardless on how entertaining people tell me this shit is lol )

2 i dont feel like it

3 i dont have shit to say right now really.

4 ive been working ( kinda lol )

5. im gonna redo my site… and flash is a pain in my black ass….

and ive been tryin to fucking MOVE. i HATE the place i stay. ( im in reseda right now ) and im lookin for another spot to live in the greater los angeles area. i had TWO places locked in… but tha shit fell thru for whatever reasons both times. but i know i need to get outa this muhfucka tho… imma fuck around and catch a case here. this whole apt building is fulla shit. if i could find a nice house to rent… id be in heaven…


im lookin for a REAL GOOD flash artist.

if anybody who may happen to read this page might know of one… email me at O@five27.com

i might have a project avliable ( a payin one lol )


the other day… me and syl were comin back from………. shit… some where i cant remember…

anyway… were rollin down the street… and i took a look in my rear view mirror… and i see this big ass… old ass el camino pull up behind me. normally… this wouldnt be a problem. But then i notice… that there is no one in the driver seat

?

i take a closer look, focus in more… and i see that there are only HANDS on the sterring wheel.

so now im think im trippin… so i all the way pay attention and try to see what tha hell my problem is…. and i notice that there are a set of eyes and scaple… PEEKING thru.

basicly what was going on is… there was this old ass man… who was to damn little to be driving this big ass car… and alll you could see was his hands on tha sterring wheel… and his only road vision came from between the dash board and the top of the fuckin sterring wheel….

anyway… i got in the other lane when the light turned green lol